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Father,
I am unbelievably bent toward sin and encouraging my own sin nature. In order to protect myself from me, I need You to lead me; my thoughts, truth, your will, your presence…. However, I know I have free will and can ignore my own plea…although I don't want to, it wants to. The 'sin' which lives in me; like a selfish and ugly split personality, it seems, not to control me, but to gain the ability to have greater and greater influence. What is it's source of power? Time away from You? Time away from your Word? Time away from godly people? Too much time focused on my own wants? Not enough time spent thinking of others first. Yes, yes, all of this!